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It is with great sorrow that we express our gratitude for the life and memory of Dr. Reilly Maginn, 78, who departed us on Sunday, February 20th, 2011 at 4:30PM in Daphne, Alabama. He was a dear friend, distinguished colleague and a gentleman of great intellect. He will be missed by many.

A memorial service took place at Thursday, the 24th, at 5PM to 8PM at Audubon Park Apartments main building located at:

8160 Highway 64, Daphne, AL 36526

Please remember the family in your prayers.

We thank you for all your love and support during our time of bereavement.

15. Requiem

by Robert Louis Stevenson

 

UNDER the wide and starry sky
Dig the grave and let me lie:
Glad did I live and gladly die,
And I laid me down with a will.
This be the verse you ‘grave for me:
Here he lies where he long’d to be;
Home is the sailor, home from the sea,
And the hunter home from the hill.

Tags: life, memory, reilly maginn, requiem, robert louis stevenson

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“We’re here dear. Time to wake up.”
“What? Where? What time is it?”
“It’s late dear. You’ve been asleep.”
“I’m groggy. Can’t seem to wake up. Where are we?”
“It’s okay dear. We’re here at the departure lounge. Remember?”
“All right. Just give me a minute to clear my head. Seems like I’ve been out for hours.”
“You’ve been asleep for a bit dear. Just take your time. The others are still getting off and the aisle is full now, anyway. Just relax.”
Where in the devil are we. Seems like only moments ago we were driving to the hospital. Why were we going to the hospital? Oh yes. I remember. It was my operation. Right. I was going to have a minor operation. I was going to have general anesthesia, wasn’t I? What happened. It’s all kind of fuzzy and cloudy. I remember going to sleep. Dr. Andrews was putting me to sleep but my memory begins to fade after that. Guess I went to sleep.
“Come on dear. The aisle is clear now and we can get off.”
“Myra, where in the devil are we going? And why are we on this bus?”
“You people are all going together dear. These other people going to the departure lounge too, dear. You’re not the only one.”
“And why do I have on this silly gown. It’s all open in the back. My behind is freezing.”
“That’s what they gave you to wear when we got on sweet.”
“Where are my clothes?”
“Right here in this carry on dear. I’ve got your watch and ring in my purse.”
“Okay. Just be sure they’re safe. That’s a Rolex you know and the ring is gold.”
“I know dear, I know. Don’t worry your head about them.”
“And another thing; you didn’t say where we were going dear. Where are we?”
“I told you. We’re at the departure lounge.”
“What airline and where are we bound for?”
“Just be patient dear. They’ll let you know soon enough.”
“They’ll tell me? Just me? You mean tell us don’t you? You’re going too, aren’t you?”
“I can’t go dear. I don’t have a card.”
“Card? What are you talking about?”
“That card you carry in your wallet. You signed it years ago. You have to have a signed card to get in this lounge. I don’t have one. You have to go on alone from here at the door.”
“Well, I’m not going on without you.”
“You have to dear. I’m not ready yet and you are. Besides, you’re the one who signed.”
“I did? What did I sign for? I don’t remember. Must have been a long time ago.”
“You gave them permission, when it was time, for any and all they need.”
“All of what? What do they need? And what do you mean ‘when it was time?’ “
“They have to be careful not to take a donation before it’s time.”
“Donation? What donation? Hope it’s tax deductible.”
“You shouldn’t worry about taxes now; that’s the other thing you don’t have to worry any more.”
“I’m still kind of hazy and unsure what I signed for. I remember falling asleep. It was Dr. Andrews, wasn’t it, who put me to sleep?”
“That’s right sweet. You went right to sleep.”
“And then? What happened? I woke up here on this bus at a departure lounge. My memory is blank for the in between. Did I get my operation or what?
“No. They started but didn’t finish. And that’s why we’re here now.”
“Well then, why are we here? Are they going to finish up now? You never did tell me.”
“No. Your procedure is over and done with. We’re here about your donation. You know. Choice Cuts is what you always said about the program. Just a bundle of spare parts. There’s a real need, you always said, isn’t it and so now it’s time to follow through.
Here they come so just close your eyes and relax. You won’t feel a thing. They told me this will only take a few minutes but it will help someone for a lifetime. You can leave the departure lounge as soon as they finish, I promise, and then you can go back to sleep for a good long, long rest. Good night, dear.”

Tags: departure lounge, hospital, time to wake up

Posted under Short Stories

We called him Mother. He was the landing officer aboard our carrier steaming through the south Pacific in search of the fleeing Japanese fleet. He was our guardian angel and guided us in for the immensely difficult carrier landings. More planes and pilots were lost in carrier landings than in combat in WW II. It was 1944 and our flight of eight ancient and obsolete torpedo-bomber-fighters had taken off for the battle of the Philippine Sea. These outdated aircraft were all we had to throw at the Japanese at the time. That day American fighters shot down more than 600 of their carrier based planes in the Marianas Turkey Shoot and sank three of their carriers. Our stunning victory was gained not without paying a price, though. I was the sole survivor of my squadron as the other seven planes of our flight were lost to enemy fire. So much for our clumsy, slow, lumbering torpedo planes. I began frantically searching for our carrier after leaving the attack and dogfight. Through the broken cloud cover, as the sun sank slowly in the west, I saw only a vast empty ocean. No place to land my damaged and airplane; moreover I was nearly out of fuel.

There! Wait, over there–to starboard. There in the distance was the wake of a ship. A carrier. Must be her, my carrier, my home base and hopefully, there would be Mother standing on her fantail waiting to bring me in. I dropped down to sea level, leaned up the gasoline mixture and throttled the engine down to conserve fuel. I was concerned about running out of gas and having to ditch in the black, threatening ocean. The needle was near empty. They would never find me in the dark if I ditched in the ocean at night.

I followed the wake of the carrier until I was only a mile from her stern. Breaking radio silence, I called for help. Breaking radio silence was a real no-no; there were enemy submarines in the vicinity. “This is Red Fox leader. I’m desperately low on fuel, have a damaged aircraft and will need some deck illumination for a night landing. This is an emergency. I request a priority landing as I don’t have the fuel to proceed into a standard landing pattern.” The sun had already set and no moon was visible behind the cloud cover.

No reply. Nothing. Was my radio working? Didn’t they hear me? Why no reply? Again I attempted to raise the carrier. “Red Fox leader attempting a landing with a damaged aircraft low on fuel. Please give me thirty seconds of deck light that I might make an emergency landing.”

And again, no reply. Silence. I thought to myself, under no circumstances am I going to ditch in the ocean. They’ll never be able to find me in the dark. I’d rather crash on deck than ditch and drown in the sea. I continued my approach toward the fantail of the carrier as I began the landing checklist in my head. Wheels down. Flaps down. Hook down, Canopy back. Seat restraints loosened for quick exit. Throttle back. The plane began to flutter and waver just maintaining enough speed to prevent a stall. The engine began to miss and cough. I was running on fumes.

As I approached the stern, there was Mother, the landing officer with his paddles, frantically waving me off a landing. The landing officer is responsible for deciding if a landing aircraft is “in the groove”, and is capable of landing safely. A fiery crash on deck can jeopardize the entire ship and its crew and it is Mother’s responsibility to allow only safe landings. He waved off any plane that might crash and burn if it threatened the safety of the ship. It was drummed into us in flight school that one never questions or disobeys Mother’s orders; in this case, a “wave off “of an attempted landing. Never sass yo’ Momma.

Waved off landing, I was not sure if I had enough fuel to do a turn around; I gunned the throttle and banked to port, avoiding the carrier’s bridge island as I again lined up with the wake of the carrier. It was black as the inside of a burned out gun barrel. On the radio, I announced, once more, “I’m coming in momma, wave off or no. I will not ditch in the sea. I can’t swim. I have enough fuel for one more try and I’m going to land or crash on deck, one way or another.”

The engine began missing and sputtering as I throttled down. Wheels down, Flaps down, Hook down, Canopy back, Restraints loosened, I approached the carrier’s stern. There was Mother, again waving his landing paddles frantically, trying to wave me off. As I cleared the stern, just ten feet off the deck, the engine sputtered and quit. The Avenger flies like a brick when she loses power and I dropped heavily to the deck. My plane bounced once as I missed the first and second restraining cables. My tail hook caught the third wire, jerking to a stop just in front of the barrier at the end of the flight deck.

Perspiration beaded my forehead and face as I pulled off my helmet, goggles, oxygen mask and throat radio as I stood up in the cockpit. I thought to myself, Thank you Lord. I’m down. I’ll probably get a court martial for disobeying Mother’s wave offs and orders not to land. Yet, just possibly they’ll give me a commendation for a difficult night landing and saving this pilot and this aircraft. Not likely, but just maybe.

At that moment, a man in a yellow garrison cap bearing the rising sun red ball of the Japanese Navy, scurried from under the wing, looked up smiling toothily and said,

“Ah so, American Pilot, you make a very good night landing.”

Tags: american fighters, avenger, don't sass your momma, japanese, marianas turkey shoot, mother, pacific, philippine sea, plane, red fox leader, torpedos, WWII

Posted under Short Stories

There it was at the end of her letter. In lieu of flowers. No obit card. Nothing.

Just an afterthought; forgo the flowers. Send a donation to an obscure charity.

I wrote to Boo several weeks ago. My best friend on the mainland.

His wife replied with a short note. And there it was… In lieu of…

I searched the papers. No notice. Nothing in the newsletter.

Nothing on the networks, the internet or cable. Google – nada.

Yet, there it was. Surprise.

Abstain from the accustomed. No flowers.

Strange. Too soon. It wasn’t his time.

A favorite of mine. Loved and esteemed. And now, just no flowers.

An error? Maybe. Not likely, though. Possibly a mistake? Improbable.

A lie? Couldn’t be. No reason to prevaricate.

A joke. That would be sick. No one would do that; I hope.

How to check? Not many of us left to confirm or deny.

Should I call and ask? Better not. Don’t want to open a wound again. Nothing maudlin.

There’s something missing now. An empty space.

A hollow, dreary void now exists where there was none before.

I’ll not send flowers. Just the check.

Seems pointless.

Tags: flowers, Google, In Leiu of Flowers, In Lieu of Flowers, mainland

Posted under Short Stories

ESILL (Eastern Shore Institute of Lifelong Learning) Classes will be offered by Reilly Maginn this February.  Here is the information from the ESILL web site:

WRITING THE SHORT STORY
This course is for both the beginner and those already writing fiction or struggling to overcome writer’s block.  Students will learn how to get started, characterization, the use of conflict in plot development, how to revise and edit their work, and tips on publishing.  Students’ work will be read and gently critiqued.  Texts will be suggested in class.  Tuesdays, 9-noon, 4 weeks, Feb. 3-24.  Tuition $54.  Call Reilly Maginn at 510-7855.

Tags: Eastern Shore Institute of Lifelong Learning, ESILL, reilly maginn, training, writing development, Writing the Short Story

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            “Jesus Ed, why didn’t you come in sooner?  That sore behind your ear is almost certainly a malignant melanoma.  You’ve got nodules in your neck and that trouble breathing, you’re having, is a bad sign.  The darned thing has probably spread.  I want to get a chest X-ray right now.”

            “Come on doc.  You sound like you’re hanging crepe.  Can’t be that serious now can it.  Sounds like you’ve got a Porsche payment coming up and need the dough.”

            “Damn it Ed.  Stop jacking around.  I’m not kidding.  Those lumps in your neck could very well be metastases and there’s little question the lesion behind your ear is a melanoma and a bad one.”

            “Okay, Anders.  It was just a little gallows humor.  You’re not kidding about how serious it is and how it may have spread are you?”

            “I wish I was kidding Ed.  I’m not.  Let’s get the film right now and let me look at it, okay?”

            When they looked at the X-ray a few minutes later there was dead silence.  Both lung fields were covered with small nodules.  Even Ed, a layman, could see his doctor was not joking.  Frowning, Dr. Anders said, “This is really serious Ed.  We need a biopsy of the lesion and from one of the nodes in your neck.  They can be done under local anesthesia tomorrow.  I’ll do a frozen section on the tissue and have a diagnosis this afternoon.

 

            The results were as the doctor predicted.  A viciously malignant melanoma that was already widespread.

            “Sit down here Ed.  I’m not going to pull any punches with you.  You’ve got a really bad cancer and it’s widespread.  It’s beyond surgical removal, radiation therapy and even chemotherapy is out.  You had better get your affairs in order.  You don’t have long.  I’m really sorry to be this blunt but as your doctor and your friend I feel you need to know just how serious this is.”

            “How long have I got?

            “No telling.  That’s Hollywood stuff when they say you’ve got two months or two years.  No one can predict what’s going to happen and how soon.”

            “Gimme’ a ball park estimate.”

            “Hell, it could be this afternoon if you have lesions in your brain or it could be three months from now.  I’m not kidding when I say I can’t give you a time.”

            “Anders, I walked in here this morning with a sore behind my ear and you’ve just given me a death sentence.  Can this be real?”

            “Fraid so, big guy.  I wouldn’t be this frank and in such short order if you weren’t my best friend.  We’ve been sailing together for nearly thirty years.  I was Commodore last year at the yacht club and you’re Commodore this year.  I count you as a colleague as well as a true friend.  Your wife Marie and my Annie have been close since we met.  You have to tell Marie about this and soon.”

            “I understand what you’re saying doc.  I gotta’ think this thing through and figure out how I’m going to tell her.  Certainly not tonight.  They are giving me a roast and a plaque at the yacht club dinner tonight.  I’ll get to it in a day or two.  No need to spoil the occasion tonight.”

            “Okay but don’t put it off too long.”

            “Don’t worry.  I’ll “git ‘er done” and in due time.  Thanks for nothing you big galoot.”

             “Go on and get outa’ here and enjoy the dinner tonight.  See ya’ this evening at the yacht club roast.  I’m around if you need me or want me to help with breaking the news to Marie. Okay?”

 

Dazedly, Ed Macon stumbled out of his doctor’s office.  He was in shock.  The whole morning seemed surreal.  He was going to die and very shortly.  And he had to tell his wife of forty-four years of the results of the tests as well as its inevitability.  Unbelievable.  What the hell happened to my life?

 

            Ed and Marie had been married more than four decades.  No children.  It was their decision.  It was just the two of them through the years.  And their love had not faded or dulled.  Indeed, it had increased as the two melded into a single unit, each supporting and strengthening the other.  They remained lovers as well as husband and wife.

            The dinner, the jocularity and the good times that evening were unmatched.  The club members roasted Ed with good naturedly tinged humor.  The food, the wine and the conversations were unequaled that night.  Ed and Marie cuddled and kissed on their way home like newly weds and made love that night as never before.  At dawn, Ed arose without disturbing Marie and went to his desk.  Taking a sheet of stationary and his pen, he made his way out to the deck overlooking the bay as the sun rose.  Silently he contemplated the unruffled water and the blank sheet of paper as the sun rose over the bay.  Finally he began to write.

         Marie, I’ve been given some very bad news by Doctor Anders.  This sore behind my ear is a malignant lesion that is now widespread and beyond any cure or even treatment.  My days here on earth with you are essentially over.  I refuse to become a vegetable in a hospital ICU and will not subject you to the agonizing decision making about when to “pull the plug”.  I’m going sailing this morning on GOOD TIMES and will not return.  I only hope it will be termed an accident. An accident judgment will preclude problems with my insurance.  The investments and the life insurance settlement will sustain you after I’m gone.  I know full well this is the coward’s way out but I feel it’s best for both of us.  I love you with all my heart and I don’t want you to agonize over a dying man.

         Your loving and adoring husband.

            He signed the letter, sealed it and placed it on the kitchen table.  Slipping out the kitchen door he drove slowly to the yacht club where their small sailboat was tied up.  Casting off the mooring lines he ghosted out into the channel and thence into Mobile Bay.  Raising the sails, he cut the motor and relaxing, leaned back on the cockpit coaming.  Ed began to reminisce about the good times he and Marie had experienced aboard their small sailboat, GOOD TIMES.  Leaving the bay, he headed out into the Gulf of Mexico.  The sky was cobalt blue and cloudless as the sun rose.  The gentle following sea was smooth and the north wind quietly drove the boat south into the Gulf.

           

Better tie down this tiller so she holds her course south into the Gulf; don’t need anyone questioning how I got so far south.  We may get to Mexico before they find Good Times.

Guess it’s about time for my” two step” off the transom.  I’m out of the sight of land and any curious onlookers.  Kind of scary, I must admit.  Hope they think it was just an accident.  Maybe a shot of some Dutch courage would help.  I think there’s a nearly full bottle of Wild Turkey in the galley locker.  And indeed there was.  Retrieving the whiskey, Ed poured himself a generous shot.  Downing it in a single gulp, he poured another.  And another.  Wow, that’s strong stuff.  Feel a little dizzy.  Maybe too much too quickly.  Better put my head down and rest for a minute.  GOOD TIMES can handle herself for a bit.  One more for good luck.  He fell fast asleep almost immediately.  The whiskey, taken in such large quantities and in such a short time put him into a near comatose state.  He was virtually stuporous for the next five hours. 

           

The north breeze began to back in an hour and when he awoke, four hours later, the wind had shifted one-hundred and eighty degrees from north to the south.  The sailboat had gradually turned and was now heading right back into Mobile Bay.

            Ed awoke slowly and groggily.  Where in the devil am I?  Well I’ll be damned.  That’s the Sand Point lighthouse to port.  I’m heading back into Mobile Bay.  The wind must have backed and GOOD TIMES just swung around and is taking me home.  Guess I owe the “Big Guy” upstairs for this.  Think he just wasn’t going to let me do my two step off the transom.  Besides, they couldn’t bury me in the church cemetery if they found out what I did.  A couple of Hail Mary’s and Our Fathers are in order.  Might as well head back to the club and tie up.  Boy, have I got a headache.

            Securing GOOD TIMES in her slip, Ed drove home.  Oh shit.  I forgot all about the note on the kitchen table.  Marie is really going to be pissed when she reads it.  Jesus, she can be a shrew when she’s aggravated.  I’ll just have to try a couple of mea culpas and explain. 

            Turning into the drive he could see Marie’s car in the garage.  Damn, she’s home already.  Here goes, he thought, as he opened the front door.  “Marie.  You home already?”  No answer.  In the living room he saw her lying on the couch.  Apparently asleep.  His note was on her bosom, still moist with tears.  It was then he saw the empty bottle of Seconal sleeping pills on the floor.  Picking up the letter he could see she had written a comment at the bottom.

            Ed, we’ve been married for forty-four years and we’ve been a darned good team together.  I’m not going to go it alone. You’re not going without me.  Wait up.  I’m coming with you.  I love you with all my heart.

            She wasn’t breathing.

 

Posted under Short Stories

“Fifteen hundred miles is a long way to drive.  Are you sure you want to drive and not fly?” he said.

            “If we take our time, don’t speed, and we don’t murder each other along the way, I think it might be fun,” she replied.

            “OK, but remember, you’re the one who initiated this fool idea.  It’ll be three days up and three days back.  You’re sure you want to spend nearly a week, just traveling?”

            “We can enjoy the scenery and we’ll arrive fresh as daisies.  Remember the hectic wear and tear of the flight to Omaha?  It was nothing but hurry, hurry, rush, rush, or we’ll miss the plane.  I hated it.  We were barely speaking to each other by the time we got home?”

            “I remember only too well.  OK, OK, we’ll drive.  But remember, it was your idea.  Don’t blame me if things don’t go well.  Ontario, here we come.” 

            Finally it’s leavin’ day.  We’re actually leavin’.  Five AM. 

            “Myra, for goodness sake, what are you doing now?  What’s the hold up?  Let’s go.  Get a move on girl.”

            Weather channel says it’s “good to go” all the way to Canada.  .  We’re finally moving.  

                                    *                                  *                                  *

            Jackson, Mississippi. Stop for lunch, a pit stop, and a quick gas and go.

            “Arthur, why don’t I get some vendor machine sandwiches and cokes so we can keep going?  We can eat in the car.”

            “OK, OK, Myra, but you know how much I hate to eat while I’m driving,”

            “Come on, do it.  We can make some time.  I’ll be right back.”

            “Oh all right.  Get the food.”  I acquiesce, just to keep the peace. 

            Myra goes into the Mini Mart for some of that damnably dry, tasteless, machine made fare as I gas up.  I’m behind the wheel checking the map when I hear the door slam.  That was quick.  Guess she only needed one trip.  She’s probably already tucked into her nest in the “far back” rear section.  She’ll eat and be asleep in a New York minute.   I’m a bit put out about the food and drink in the vehicle.  I hate driving and eating.

            Exasperated, I yell back to her, “I’m not hungry now, Myra, so hold my food back there for a bit.”

            No answer.  She’s probably asleep by now.  I always spill something in my lap, eating while I drive.  Alone in the front seat, I begin to wonder.  It’s pretty quiet back there.  She’s already asleep, no doubt.  Just as well.  Silence between the two of us will keep the peace.  I’m working on a silent burn about this eating and driving, anyway.  OK, I can play her quiet petulance game, too.  Fine to me. 

           

            Cape Girardeau next exit.  Is that a Missouri state trooper right behind me?  Damn, he’s “scoping” me out.  Checking my Alabama plates.  Oh, double damn, now his blue bubble light is on.  Here he comes.  Boy, this is classic. Right outa’ the movies.  Smokey Bear hat.  Opaque, mirrored sunglasses and black leather puttees.  Tall, grim and intimidating.  He saunters up to my window, turns and says,  “You from Alabama?”

            “What’s the trouble, officer?”  .  Is there a problem?  Was I speeding?  What?”

            I’m ticked.  He knows I’m from Alabama.  Better not get smart with him.  Don’t want to spend a night in the pokey.

            “No, you weren’t speeding but I believe you’re in big trouble.”

            Now I’m aggravated, and he can tell it.

            “Just what the devil do you mean you believe I’m in big trouble, officer?  I’m a law-abiding citizen and I’ve done nothing wrong, so why the hell did you stop me?

I was starting to get hot.  

            “You forgot something mister.”

            “Forgot something did I?  What?  Did I leave the stove on?  Did Myra leave the iron on?.”

            I was beginning to really get agitated.  These almighty troopers were a pain in the neck.  Who did they think they were, anyway?

            “Come on, tell me.  What did I forget.  The dog?  Speak up and make it snappy.  I’m in a hurry.”

            “You’re not even close, Mister.  Did you stop at the Mini Mart in Jackson?”

            “Yeah.  Got a gas and go.  Myra got some food and we scooted, “lickety split” outa there and I was making good time, that is, up to now that you’ve stopped me.” 

            “Well, it seems, in your “lickety split” leavin’, back in Jackson, you left your wife at the Mini Mart.”

            “Oh, I did?  Oh my” 

            “Have a nice day, sir”

Tags: Alabama, Canada, Jackson, lickety split, Mississippi, Missouri, police, rush

Posted under Essays, Short Stories

It’s hard for me to be grateful, but I’m trying. I still can get around on my artificial leg and can use the hook where my right hand used to be. I only have one eye but I can still see. OK. My scars on my chest and abdomen are still purple and tender but they’re healed. My liver, kidney and lung functions are all adequate in spite of losses in each system. Still, I guess I really should be grateful.

I had a terrible motorcycle crash last year; in a coma for twelve weeks. I’m a surgical resident and I ended up in my own hospital, tended to by my own professor and mentor. I’m sure I got special care. He just wouldn’t give up on me. He took me back to the operating room six times in the first few weeks, to stop bleeding, they say. I woke up twelve weeks later missing my left eye, my right hand, my left lower leg and parts of my liver and left lung, as well as a kidney. I was told they had to remove those organs because of continued bleeding. Nonetheless, I’m still here and relatively functional. They said I was nearly brain dead and my recovery after three months of coma was astonishing. It certainly surprised the professor, I’m told. He just couldn’t believe it, they say.

Coming out of a coma is like coming up from a deep ocean scuba dive. It’s all dark and then you can see some light above you. You start ascending and the light gets brighter and you begin to hear voices. One can’t make out what they’re saying, at first, but things get clearer and then one day you break through the film above you and burst into the sunlit world again. At least that’s how it was for me. It seems my mind and mental abilities were not seriously impaired, for I recovered my memory of events before the accident with no trouble. Interestingly, my sense of smell, hearing and taste were not diminished and my recall of distant occurrences was not impaired.

My pot holed, rutted, twisting road to recovery was accomplished with the constant harassment of the skillful physical terrorists; I call them terrorists. In reality the physical therapists probably saved my life after all those operations. Like the professor, they never gave up on me. I must admit, I developed a real dislike for a couple of them during the long rehabilitation penance year. I paid my dues though, and I can now walk, think, see, and use my hook with some dexterity. I’m grateful to them for their persistence and perseverance. Together with the professor, the hospital team and the rehab unit physical therapists I’m here today. They saved my life. I’m grateful.

But wait. There’s more to the story. Last week I was sitting in the back booth of the pub across from the hospital, nursing a beer. I’m still not too social after the trauma and the long recovery period.

A pair of surgical residents slid in the booth next to mine without noticing me. They were buzzing with excitement about the day’s occurrences.

“He’s been indicted and charged with malfeasance, ethics violations and malpractice.”

“You’re kidding. The professor? The head of the transplant unit?”

“No I’m not kidding. I hear he has it coming. You should hear what he did.”

“What?”

“It seems he had a comatose patient that he thought was going to be pronounced brain dead. He removed a whole bunch of organs, for transplant, from the patient before he was certified dead. And to everyone’s surprise the patient woke up weeks later and recovered, weeks later.”

“I can’t believe it. He did all that?”

“He did. But you haven’t heard the worst yet. The donor was one of us.”

“What do you mean one of us?”

“It was a surgery resident on the professor’s own transplant service. You remember him. The guy that had that horrific motorcycle accident last year.. The prof. took six different organs and transplanted them into six different recipients. That’s how he made his name in the field of transplantation. Six transplants to six donors. All unrelated. And they all are still functioning. It got him a Nobel Prize.”

“What a story. It’s almost unbelievable, isn’t it.”

Sitting in the next booth, I was stunned. No. I was astounded. He used me as the donor for this surgical tour d’ force. In addition, the professor used my organs to make a name for himself. He betrayed me and the whole cadre’ of transplant physicians. What a bastard. I was furious and I wanted payback. I left the pub in a rage, hurriedly gimping along with my cane on my prosthetic leg.

The walk home is long and I’m a bit slow so it gave me time to mull over what I’d heard and what I might do about it. I began to think about the results of the professor’s actions. A woman with a new kidney is free from the tyranny of the hemodialysis machine. A yellow jaundiced child is now enjoying a normal life with a normally functioning liver. A blind girl can now see again. A cripple is walking again and a boy has forsaken his iron hook for a functional right hand. A child, gasping for breath because of lung disease, is now breathing normally. God only knows they must be the most grateful group of patients you’ll ever see. And me? What about me? I can walk and I can use my hook. I can see and my liver and lung functions are adequate. I only need my one kidney. I’m getting along Okay, I guess. I’m grateful to the wonderful care I got at the University hospital and for the wonderful group of therapists in the rehabilitation unit. I’m grateful to be alive. And let’s face it. I’m alive because the professor took care of me. Sure he had an ulterior motive but I’m still here, aren’t I.

They’re going to ask me to testify at the hearing. I don’t think so..

Thankful? Appreciative? Indebted? Yes, all of the above and most of all I’m grateful.

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